I guess the scariest moment anyone could ever have is when you think that you're going to loose the one you love the most. Crying never felt so terrible.I felt myself scream on the inside,but when I tried to scream through my mouth,little whispers were all that fell from my lips. The words that I heard repeated and spun around in my head. "Please let me see Megan!I just need to kiss her and tell her I love her before I go!Please!" "Why do you want to take my life away!?Megan is my life,I love her more than anything!" I felt helpless just sitting there with tears pouring off my cheeks and all the memories of Sean and I floating aimlessly on my screensaver.Photos of us together,seeming as if we'd be together forever. Hearing the words, "Get in the car Sean" and "Mom!Please let me see Megan one last time" ripped and tore through my body and heart like I was a worthless piece of paper. Listening to all our songs brought me back to how we used to be. We used to only have each other and we used to only need each other. But now we need something much greater than a keen sense of attraction to one another,we needed love to keep us together so that maybe we won't fall apart. Maybe our love won't die.Crash and burn like a broken-winged bird falling helplessly to the Earth and ending up in a crumpled, lifeless mess. Believing for one second that I was going to lose the only one I had ever loved made my life seem worthless and incomplete. Those fifthteen minutes were a constant drowning.Like I couldn't get my head above the water. Like the surface was almost within my reach, but I was just a little too deep to breathe once again. As if I was somehow tangled in a dead tree at the bottom of a lake, watching life above me go on as my existence slowly faded. My eyes burned with salty tears and my face reddened when I snapped back into reality and knew that we were lost from the start. Chills followed my spine like snow falling from a
blackened cold atmosphere. Once finally hearing a voice so familiar pulled me back in from my sour thoughts.The voice sounded like an angel. It was my love. Hearing him tell me that everything is okay and that he was not leaving made me cry even harder. Just the thought of actually losing him for one secind and hearing him say that everything was going to be okay sheered through my chest like a speer. From all the cries and silent screams my head pounded as if a bullet wsa shot through my skull. I now know that the reason for all of this was not to break our love. It was meant to make it stronger. I know now how much I need him in my life now. I know now how scared I am about losing him. I love him unconditionally. Forever. Always.


I Love You Sean Brendan Clancy. I'll Never Leave You.

~Megan Byrne Clancy